Polka Dot Skirt: Forever21.
Gold Chain Clip On Earrings: Thrifted.
Blue 1950's Bow Stilettos: Thrifted.
It seems as though I had quite the case of the Monday blues today. I knew that today was not going to be the greatest because Matt wasn't going to be at school today. Without Matt, school is almost unbearable. I keep trying to buck up and not be so sad when he's not at school because I know next year he won't be at school at all, but sometimes it is just so hard. I feel so alone at school without him. I am like an invisible person who watches as all of the other students laugh with their friends and have fun. I watch as people pass me by and look right through me it seems. I sit by myself; isolated from the other students. No one wants to be my partner and I can't really blame them. I don't really talk, and they don't really know me, so why should they want to be my partner?
I just felt so lonely and empty today at school, and these feelings are something I am very familiar with and am faced with quite often. What scared me about these feelings, however, is that instead of feeling like this every once and awhile, I might feel like that everyday next year without Matt at my side. When I got home today I just had a really good cry and that did make me feel better. Just bottling my emotions up all day is so hard, and it felt good to release my bad feelings after a long day.
I'm trying to look at the bright side of this bad day like Maria of Undergrad Fab would do :) Instead of moping around and having a pity party for myself, it's important to look at the bright side of my day and the wonderful things I do have in my life. At the end of today, I received something really wonderful that I cannot WAIT to show you all tomorrow! I am seriously so excited!
I know that I'm just going through a rough patch in my life right now, but I will get through it. I know I will. High school is just a small portion of my life, and in the long run it won't even come to matter in the future. For now I've just got to try and deal with it the best I can and have faith that everything will eventually turn out okay :)
Hope everyone is doing great!
With much love, Lauren.
P.S. To the anonymous commenter on my last post. I'm sorry to hear that you think I complain too much about other people and should focus on my style and my blog more. Thank you for your advice, but I'd just like to remind you that this is a personal life blog ,as well, as a personal style blog. For me, venting out my feelings and emotions about life is an important part of this blog and who I am. If you believe that I complain about other people too much, I'm sorry you think that and you do not have to continue to read my blog if it makes you unhappy. And frankly, I am done with the whole issue,have moved on, and am not planning on talking about it anymore. My last post did not even say anything about other people, and I only addressed this issue in one post and one post only.