SomeoneLikeYou Sunday, December 19, 2010
After five years with no bangs, I've decided to go back to my original roots! (No pun intended, ha.)
Getting these blunt bangs really made me think about my past and have somewhat of a nostalgic moment. I remember hating my blunt bangs with such fervor in the fifth grade. They made me feel so ugly and like a complete nerd. Along with my bangs, I just plain out hated my overall appearance. I thought of myself as fat and nerdy, and had awful self-esteem. I felt this way for many years, probably up until my sophomore year when I came to a final acceptance of myself. Looking back, I honestly couldn't be more proud of how far I've come.
Recently for an English project we had to write a letter to our six year old self telling them what to watch out for, what to expect, and so on. Here's just a small excerpt from the letter:
"Oh, and another important piece of advice: love yourself. Don't compare yourself to those other girls. You are just as beautiful as all of them. Even if you don't see it now, someday you will. Don't call yourself fat, ugly, and four eyes. You don't need to wear tons of makeup and be a size zero to look gorgeous. You don't need to have blonde hair and blue eyes to be the prettiest girl at school. Just know, please just know Lauren, that you are beautiful. Beautiful on the inside, but also on the outside with your Bugs Bunny glasses, frizzy hair, and extra large jeans. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise."
I cried so much when I wrote this portion for my letter because it just took me back to my days as a young girl, who hated myself. I think loving yourself is one of the most important things in life, and when you love yourself you can then start to love your life. Gaining a love for myself and a confidence is probably one of the things I am most proud of in my life!
With much love, Lauren.