Song of the Cicadas.
SomeoneLikeYou Saturday, July 23, 2011
Floral Romper: Forever21.
Jewelry, Belt: Thrifted.
Tan Clog Heels: Target.
You know it's summer time when you hear the buzzing of the cicadas early in the morning. The sun shines through your window and cascades dancing images upon your walls. You have the whole day ahead of you to do whatever you want or please. No worries, no stress. Just the sound of summer.
Yesterday I went on a second college visit to a school I am really interested in. Being at this school somewhat gave me a kick of reality that the summer before my senior year is coming to a quick close. I still wish it was the beginning of June and all the hopes and wishes of a brilliant summer were before me, however,they aren't any more. All that is looming is the start of my Senior year. My last year of high school.
I'm so scared. Scared out of my mind to be precise. So much is going to change this next year and so much will be placed on my shoulders. I've already felt the burden of being a senior this summer with the stress of planning out my senior pictures. Getting a photographer, setting a date, getting outfits, finding a location. Thankfully all of that is done (scheduled to take pictures this coming Thursday), but now larger problems are coming into the horizon.
I've been frantically studying for the ACT because I'm going to take it for the fourth time in September. I have a certain score I want so, so badly and I'm only one point away. The pressure is certainly on. I was shocked to find out yesterday that applications to be accepted to college start August first, which is just a little over a week away... My summer assignment for Advanced Senior English is due in a few mere weeks, and I'm not even close to being done... This is the first year also that Matt won't be with me at high school, and I'm scared to death that I'm going to be terribly lonely. There's scholarships to consider, final visits to decide where I want to go, and of course the dreaded senior paper. Not to mention I'm totally stressing over how I'm going to go to school and deal with all my AP classes along with having a job...
My parents tell me I need to chill, and I know deep in my heart they are so right. I should try and enjoy my senior year and not dread it so much. Hopefully as fall and school approach I'll learn to calm down and take things as they come and not worry about what's next. Hopefully.
You all tell me: did you enjoy your senior year, or were you stressed out?
With much love, Lauren.