Nude Chiffon Maxi Skirt, Red Striped T, Straw Fedora: Thrifted.
Red Gavina Heels: Blowfish Shoes.
Gold Binocular Necklace: Giveaway win.
Red Bow Belt: c/o OASAP.
I've been scared lately. Scared of what's going to come sooner than I expect this next month. I'm going to be moving away, living by myself, going to college. I think sometimes you fantasize about something for so long but don't really grasp the concept of what that something actually means.
I thought college meant a chance at freedom, a chance to be me, a chance to meet friends, a chance to study what I want. It certaintly does mean all those things, but not without hardship and bumps along the way. In high school I just thought that as soon as I would walk into college, I would love it and it would be the perfect life I've always dreamed of. I didn't think I would be nervous, I didn't think I would be scared, and I certaitnly didn't think it would difficult.
I realize now though with my summer coming to a close that all of this is a reality. It's not some fantasy world I've built up in my head. This reality is scary and real. I received my housing information the other day. What building I'm in, what room, my exact mailing address...I won't live 'here' anymore. I'll live at Kent State University. Tomorrow I'm going shopping for dorm items...something I haven't even begun to fathom. That I need a whole new set of everything for my 'other life.'
I'm just scared.
With much love, Lauren.