SomeoneLikeYou Saturday, January 12, 2013
Pink Sweater, T-Strap Heels, Clutch: Thifted.
Floral Dress: Forever21.
Today is my last day in my hometown. I'm leaving tomorrow morning at nine to travel back to Kent.
I don't really know how I feel or what to think. I'm just scared and confused and worry some I suppose which is probably very strange for you all to hear. I've grown so comfortable at home here again this last month; it's begun to feel like my actual home again. Visits to my favorite coffee shop, my loving family, the bed I wake up in and have the light shining on my face. Baths and Mcdonald's runs and the little, beautiful things that remind me of him. I never thought I'd say it but I'm going to miss this place very much again.
I feel like I'm starting college all over again even though I have a sememster underneath my belt and it went better than I could have ever expected. I'm just really worried about failing. Not necessarily out of college but at the experience itself. Silly, silly, silly. I fell in love with Kent last semester, got all A's, and lived the life I always wanted. Why am I so scared?
New classes, new people, new start again. I know I don't want to stay here for the rest of my life because it's boring and uninspiring and sad. But I love the comfort and familiarity. I'm just dreading starting everything over again tomorrow. The goodbyes. The tears. The 'I'll miss yous.' I just want it to be all over with and to be settled in and start getting used to my home again.
I'm scared guys. I feel like I did five months ago. A scared little girl; and I don't even know why.
Next time I write to you all I'll be back in Kent. Talk soon ♥
With much love, Lauren.