Pink & Pinafore.
SomeoneLikeYou Sunday, August 11, 2013
Pink T, Polka Dot Pinafore: Forever21.
Floral Crown: Handmade.
I've found summer to always be somewhat of an unhappy time for me. Although it's a beautiful season with as much freedom as a human could ask for, there's forever been a strong disappointment that comes with summer for me. I hype myself up too much for it to be incredible and to get so much done. I plan adventures and day trips. Ice cream runs in the evenings and relaxing days at the pool soaking in the sun.
But at the end of each summer, I am left with this empty feeling that three months were wasted. I may have gone to get ice cream once. It was never nice enough to go to the pool. I worked too much to take any day trips, and I had no one to go on adventures with. I get upset that I had this beautiful opportunity to live life and do what I wanted--just to sleep into 12 every day and mope around.
I sometimes wonder if my summer will ever be what I want it to be. An ideal, satisfying, array of inspiration mixed with relaxation. Perhaps someday when it's too late and I work year around I'll sit out on my front porch (overlooking a city landscape or the quiet of nature I'm unsure yet), and let a few tears slide down my face in remembrance of my wasted youth days of summer.
Though I am greatly looking forward to going back to Kent! Two weeks from today. I have actually been very scared and worrisome up until now. Just my usual of not enjoying being in between two places, two worlds. I remember last summer the two weeks before I left for college were excruciatingly tough on me in worry, anticipation, and disappointment. I thought a lot of it had to do with my fresh break up at the time, but I've found that with every big transition in my life the two weeks before I usually am a very unhappy mix of emotions.
Thankfully I've had Christ to rely on this time around. It really has been my saving grace. I was feeling very down just the other day and in a weird mood and I just turned on the local Christian radio station, read some of my bible and felt like a new person after that. I am so amazed at God's healing power on me. What He has done with my life is incredible and I want all the world to see so I can give Him the glory He deserves. Excited to continue and strengthen my journey with Him this school year through NAVS and being lead and discipled. It's coming up a year in October I will be one year born in Christ! It has been the best year of my life ♥
With much love, Lauren.
P.S. I am so honored to have been made TeenNick's top ten back to school blogs! So, so exciting. I was also featured by Your Next Dress.com as their #1 out of 10 for best July bloggers! Check out the features if you'd like here and here.