Some Life Updates.
SomeoneLikeYou Friday, April 17, 2015
Hello everyone ♥
Some of you could perhaps sense from my various social media outlets that I've had a lot going on in my personal life as of late. I used to be very candid about every aspects of my life in the first few years of my blog, but I've learned through time to not speak prematurely right away when things are happening. It's best to let it ride out, gather my thoughts, and write more emotionally sensible posts rather than ones filled with words that can hurt, harm, and cause problems.
But, I do love to let you all know the things that are going on in my personal life because that's what this blog has always been and it's one of my favorite aspects. To be honest in my struggles and hardships with you all. You've been there through so much in the last five years, and I always want to continually share these life moments with you.
That being said, although I did not talk about him much on here my boyfriend and I broke up last week. It was something that confused and angered me at the time, and unfortunately circumstances have gotten worse for me to find out he cheated, and much of the relationship was filled with lies and deceit. It hurts. I would be lying if I said it didn't. You all read through my heart breaking posts of my last break up on here three years ago and it changed my life forever when that happened. This, too, changes the course of my life and everything surrounding it. For me, although what he did seems unfathomable to me I still have happiness. I have depended on God and just found such peace in Him. My previous break up was very hard because I didn't have that rock; I didn't have that confidence in something greater, and I struggled for years on end with that. This time around, I do not feel anger or vengeance or deep depression. I feel hope. I feel love. I am confident for my future and the things it holds. The path Christ has for me. He never fails me; He never gives me things I cannot handle. I've been in a dry period of my faith every since going away to Europe and I just couldn't break it. Now I know why I was in it. The relationship was holding me back so much. I compromised my faith for a boy. I placed all the love I should have had for Christ, into something that unfortunately failed.
I am thankful for these experiences because they build strength and determination and help me to become a better version of myself. I know I will have hard days ahead. I know that this situation will affect all my relationships to come, my confidence, my trust, and just so much...but I am not broken. I'm anything but. I feel strong and like I have pieces of myself back that I lost a long time ago.
Secondly, on a much greater, happier scale I have very, very exciting news. After some technical issues, my plans for my internship this summer have changed. Instead of staying in Ohio for the summer... I am moving to the huge, wonderful, exciting New York City. Someone Like You has a new adventure! I am so pleased and honored to say I accepted an internship as a Ready to Wear Intern with Seventeen and Cosmopolitain Magazines. I'm speechless. I'm in awe. I honestly can't believe it. It's been a whirl wind the past months with all my internship processes, and to decided to accept this position in New York put me through a lot. I've never been to New York, and the thought of moving to this huge city with no one, working a very demanding internship all summer away from home...I panicked. I didn't know whether to accept it or not because it was such a scary, daunting opportunity in front of me. For the first time in my schooling, I wasn't sure what I wanted. I was confused and upset because I had to decide the path I wanted me career to go in. And at 21, I just wasn't ready. But in the end, I wanted to do this. I want this challenge and I want this once in a life time opportunity. I am ready to work hard and have the summer of my life doing what I love.
I am so lucky to have the support and love of all of you around me. This blog has been like a story book the last five years. Navigating high school, mental illnesses, a hard break up, going to college, studying abroad, another equally hard break up, and now to New York City....Sometimes my life feels like a strange novel with all of its twists and turns. The events surprise me that I write about just as much as they might surprise you. But I am in awe of this blog and the people who read it. My journey never ends; the story never stops. And I am thankful I started this blog as a 16 year old in high school because having it has changed my life in a way I never thought possible.
I love you all so much. Thank you for sticking with me in every season of my life. x
With much love, Lauren.