Tossed Aside.

Plaid Skirt, Navy Sweater, Black Boots: Thrifted.

Red Circle Scarf: Target.

Hello everyone!

So as I somewhat alluded in yesterday's post I've been feeling somewhat down as of late. I guess you could say the cause of all of my frustration is my current roommate searching. It's been a few weeks since I applied for housing and signed up for the roommate match/search site. So far I haven't really had anyone show any interest in me which is upsetting. Ever since I was a little girl and knew what college was, I always dreamed of having this perfect roommate who was exactly like me... We would get along perfectly, be best friends, and she would be the maid of honor at my wedding. So corny and typical, right? Well, my search for finding the perfect roommate just isn't going so hot. I look through hundreds and hundreds of girls everyday only to be disappointed in not finding anyone like myself. After reading bio after bio of the typical, ordinary college girl I wonder if I'll ever find the dream roommate I long for. The other day I was extremely excited because a girl messaged me saying that she loved blogging and vintage fashion, as well. All of my dreams and hopes came rushing at me at once and I couldn't help but think, 'is she the one?' Unfortunately after messaging back a few times she implied that she drank a little- a complete off limits habit for me with my OCD. I kindly told her that I was 100% straight edge with all substances, and haven't heard back from her since.

I know I shouldn't be disappointed in this first failed attempt for a roommate, but I just can't help it. I'm such a sensitive person and I feel hurt that nobody wants me. Even though things obviously wouldn't have worked out between me and the girl and it's not meant to be, I feel sad to the fact that just another person can toss me aside and move on. Most of the past friends/people in my life have done just that, toss me aside, and it hurts every time it happens again even if it's about something as silly as a potential roommate.

I've only just started searching for a roommate and I have until July to find one so I know I shouldn't feel so discouraged just yet. It's just hard to keep hope alive sometimes when you have such big dreams and wishes for something that you find important.

Do you all have any good/bad experiences with finding roommates or your current roommates? I'd love to hear your stories!

With much love, Lauren.