Red Boat Neckline Dress: Thrifted.
Red Rose Crown: Handmade by me.
As of today, I have exactly one week until I leave for Kent. One week until everything I've dreamed of for years, finally happens. It's hard to believe.
I've been having trouble sleeping at night. I lay in bed for hours, thinking and thinking...about what my new life will be like. I'll be drifting off into that sound and silent place of slumber, my dreams on the edge of reality when all of a sudden I'm jolted out of trailing thoughts into my stuffy bedroom, amazed how overwhelming everything actually is.
I used to be really scared, but I've found as each day goes by my excitement builds. I think about the new scenery, the beautiful, beautiful campus. I think about all of the people- so many different, new personalities. No one I've ever meant before. I think about how I get to explore my passion, taking two fashion courses, studying what makes me happiest. Exploring downtown Kent, my dream little town full of cutsey shops and mom and pop restaurants...brick laid sidewalks and streetlamps. I'm just so giddy with excitement. The butterflies in my stomach are flying like mad.
I can't help but be sad, too though. I've pushed this town away for so long, turned my eyes away from the beauty that still exists in some parts. I'll miss the places I take my pictures, really the only places I've ever known. They're familiar, the grass is tramped down from my feet, the trees have familiar markings I recognize. The downtown area, which I vehemently declare 'a ghetto' is full of history and stories...quaint antique shops, old fashioned ice cream joints, and the carousel I ride at every summer since I've been a little girl.
You can be excited for new journeys, but that doesn't mean you won't miss the old journeys, as well. I'm just really surprised at myself I guess. I'm such a coward, afraid of everything that takes to feel alive. But for once, I'm not taking the safe road doing all this. I'm taking the biggest chance I ever have in my life. Going off on my own, studying what I want, and getting a second chance at all the friends I never got to have.
Life's too beautiful to be sad all the time.
With much love, Lauren.
P.S. I started a facebook page for Someone Like You if you're interested!
PSS. This was my 900th post ♥
PSS. This was my 900th post ♥
