Sunflower Dress: Thrifted.
Black Ankle Boots: H&M.
Brown Leather Satchel: Forever21.
Mustard Beret, Black Infinity Scarf: Target
I thought I'd wear a pretty sunflower dress today to help brighten up my mood.
Yesterday I was a mess, but today I've been good. Haven't cried at all which is certainty a step above the sobbing mess I was last night. Sometimes I don't even know why I'm sad about all this. It's not even like anything has changed. We still talk on the phone 2-3 times a day. We still text. We still tease each other like always. And tomorrow I'm seeing him like always. Things shouldn't be that big of a deal but for some reason they are for me.
I'm always the one catching myself, asking if I'm being too overbearing, too like a 'girlfriend.' It seems like he could care less and just acts like everything is normal. In one aspect, it is relieving. Nothing feels changed, my peace and equilibrium still set in stone and in it's place. On the other hand, nerve wracking. Everything may feel alright on the exterior, but interiorly I still feel like a mess. I just ended a five year relationship. Why am I not more upset? Why does this not feel like a break up?
I just don't really know anymore. For once, I suppose I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do. I guess at the end of the day I'm just going to do what makes me happy. It's the best I can do.
Hope you all had a swell weekend ♥
With much love, Lauren.
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