Hello you all!
Eugh, I always have so much to say and tell you all because my days are jam packed from morning till late at night, and then by the end of the day I'm too drained and sleepy to write :( It's the pits!
I mean don't get me wrong, I love being involved and busy and meeting new people. It's helped get my mind off things I really don't want to be thinking about lately. At the same time though, it's not something I've ever done or experienced before. I was really uninvolved in high school. I secluded myself from my classmates, didn't attend events, and certainty wasn't in any clubs. I don't want to miss my second chance at the life I want here though, so even if that means stretching myself thin with activities every hour (literally); then so be it. I want to live for once and it's been an incredible week so far and it didn't stop tonight.
Growing up Catholic I was just sort of told what to do and believe rather than finding out for myself. I made it a real goal for myself to explore my relationship with God here at Kent and have been attending these 'NAV nights' every Wednesday. They're pretty much singing and talking about finding our own personal relationship with God, and just being connected with like minded people. I've really found solace in it though these past two weeks of being here and it gives me a lot of hope. Tonight a member of the band spoke and told his personal story and it hit me so strongly because it was so close to my own. It's not something I've ever done (male or female) but afterwards I went up and told him how much I appreciated him telling his story to 150 people and that it really helped me and helped me find the direction I want to go in and be at someday. I was a ball of nerves approaching a stranger, but at the end of tonight I'm glad I did it. It's doing little things like this and just getting out of your shell to help you really grow leaps and bounds as a person.
Anywho, hope you all are doing wonderful and thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for all of the love and support you give me! (I am undeserving) ♥
With much love, Lauren.