Pink Sweater, T-Strap Heels, Earrings: Thrifted.
Mint Pants: Charlotte Russe.
Blouse (underneath),Mint Bracelet: Forever21.
Daisy Ring: Giveaway win.
I don't think I've ever really talked about why I don't wear pants on this blog. See, I didn't get into 'fashion' until I was around 14 years old and up until that point had never worn a dress outside of church. I wore jeans every day as my uniform. When I started to develop my personal style though, I thought the way to be fashionable was to wear dresses and skirts since in my 'unfashionable days' I had only wore pants. Seemed like the simplest solution to fix my dorkiness. I quickly found out that when I dressed up I received compliments, when I wore pants, I was just like everyone else. The young, insecure Lauren equated beauty with dresses, and therefore insecurity & ugliness with pants.
Every time I wore pants, I felt so inferior, so ugly. To me, dressing up was the element that helped people notice me since my face wasn't anything special (and to me at the time, it was just plain ugly). I used clothing as a means to boost my self esteem and the more dressed up I was, the better I felt about myself.
Five years later I still feel remnants of my prior thinking. I would be lying if I said I didn't. I feel insecure in pants because I've worn dresses so much that I've let them define me and define my style. In order to feel confident in a situation, it's not a pair of heels I must wear. It is a dress. It doesn't help that I am a short gal. Most people who meet me in real life are quite taken aback at how short I really am. For the longest time I despised my very short, stubby, bulky legs and wearing pants only accentuated all that I hated.
I feel like I'm getting a better grip on my self confidence and style though to start to venture out into the world of pants. I wore this outfit today and it wasn't as painful as I thought it would be. What I need to find is a unique way for me to wear pants so that they still feel as special as a dress. I get so worried of feeling like everyone else and losing my identity which is so silly. There is only one of every person on this earth.
But whether I'm me in pants or me in a dress; I'm Lauren just the same ♥
With much love, Lauren.
