Gray Lace Dress: Forever21.
Leather Jacket: H&M.
Green Wool Hat, Boots: Thrifted.
Lipstick in MAC's Rebel.
Lately I've been troubled with my friendships. I'm always in constant worry of being a bad friend, or that my friends will get bored of me. Which always seems to happen somehow and has occurred more than enough times throughout my life. The past makes me insecure and it's funny-- I'm not at all insecure about my appearance, but when it comes to my personality, I just can't shake the insecurities. I don't feel good enough, fun enough, interesting enough, worthy enough to be friends with people because that's what I've been told before. Those things just sort of stick around with you.
But tonight was just what I needed. A quiet, sit down with a box of triple cheese pizza and talking with my friends Haley and Sabrina. It was just comforting to know that they have and do go through these same feelings and things I'm going through and that I'm not alone. I am so appreciative of them. They are so helpful, so kind and caring, and genuinely, truly value me just as I am. I'm fearful to give myself to people in friendships. I can do it in writing on here to all of you, but when it comes to really letting my guard down and being vulnerable with friends I struggle. But thankfully as I look back on this semester and what I missed out on and what I hope to improve; I'm looking forward to coming back next with a more fearless attitude when it comes to friends. Grateful to Sabrina and Haley for helping me see that more clearly. Those gals are the best I could ask for.
With much love, Lauren.
