SomeoneLikeYou Monday, February 10, 2014
Blouse: Clothing Swap (Forever21).
Reindeer Sweater: c/o Chicnova.
Wine Circle Skirt: c/o OASAP.
Black Ankle Boots: Thrifted.
Lipstick in MAC's Diva.
Don't you think it's strange how game changing trust is, but yet it's a completely untouchable, invisible thing? It controls all of our relationships with people and yet, in reality it's just this thing we feel in our hearts and minds, but never see with our own eyes.
Trust is really annoying because no matter how hard you try to trust someone after they deceive or disappoint you, you just can't. There will always be a nagging, persistent voice inside of you not letting you give full control away.
For the past year and a half I've had really bad trust issues with men. I don't trust any of them, and I know that is cruel, that it's lumping them all into one category when they're not all the same...but after so many experiences of situations with them where my trust was totally taken advantage of, destroyed, and deceived...it gets hard to trust anyone. So I always put up this instant, unclimbable wall towards men whether they have romantic intentions or not, they still get put on the other side of my wall. I don't want to be so cold and calculating about their intentions, but it's just this instinct ingrained into me at this point.
So imagine my surprise when all of a sudden I'm taken aback and realize one day that a guy has actually broken through my wall and gained my trust. It took about a whole year, a lot of milkshakes at Steak and Shake with me crying my eyes out, and just genuinely being patient, but I'm really impressed that this guy has gotten me to trust him. It's not necessarily a romantic thing I have with him, but a friendship and I'm just really shocked that this whole time I've been in my mind thinking, "nope, no, naw, you're not going to get through to me" and then one day I realized, he had.
Just gives me hope I guess. That there still are guys out there who won't lie to you and drag you along and use you. There's a lot of them out there who won't do any of that actually. It just takes perhaps one person to change your mind.
With much love, Lauren.
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