Striped Crop Top, Loafers, Necklace: Thrifted.
Cardigan: Kohl's.
Circle Skirt, Wide Brimmed Hat: c/o OASAP.
Tights: c/o Lulu*s.
Lipstick in MAC's Diva.
This is such a weird set of photos. Everything looks distinctly fall from my outfit, the scenery, and even my lipstick choice. For it being mid-march this was a weird outfit selection, but maybe it'll help some of you who are entering into Fall in the southern hemisphere? It's not too ideal for us in the Northern Hemisphere, ha.
In other news, I wanted to update you all that I did go on that date! I met the guy for coffee last Friday; which I'm always up for getting off campus to get some good, local coffee. The guy was nice. He was super gentlemanly and endearing. But he just wasn't for me. He didn't do anything wrong per say (except lift up his shirt to show me his tattoos ahem), but he just wasn't the type of guy I'm interested in, I guess. He right for some girl out there, but not me. I'm at this weird place right now where I'm open to dating, but not really ready for a relationship quite yet. There is a difference between the two I've come to understand. And it wasn't until I got out of a five year relationship that I realized how scary dating actually is. It's really, really terrifying to give your whole self to another person and just dedicate so much of your time, effort, and affections towards them. In the end, you either break up or you get married, and I just haven't really come to terms with either of those ultimatums yet. I don't want to really go through another break up (last one was not fun to get over), but nor am I anywhere close to wanting to be married.
So I guess I have to give and take and just kind of do the best I can. Because I really don't know how to date. I was 13 when I entered the relationship and a few days after my 19th birthday when I got out, and haven't been in anything since. So really, it's like I'm still a 13 year old girl who has no idea how to do any of this... and sometimes she just wishes boys would go away so she didn't have to deal with them, ha.
But I know I'm only 20. And that I over think things and worry about things way too far into my future. For now, I'm going to just breathe and enjoy the journey.
With much love, Lauren.
