Red Polka Dot Dress: Modcloth.
Lavender Sweater: Thrifted.
Bow Headband: Forever21.
Hinder Flats: c/o Pink and Pepper.
Yesterday I spent all day in the dorm. Mostly sleeping to my dismay. It seems like once I wake up late, I never really wake up for the rest of the day thereafter. That's why I'm not really fond of weekends, especially up here. They feel very long and tedious, and since I have nothing I have to do, I simply do nothing. Which feels so wasteful when I think about the days I have numbed here in my life. Taking a day off for yourself and relaxing is always good, but when you're already relaxed and feeling well and then you just do it to an extreme...well, then you just feel rather useless. I would have to say if I had to pick one of the seven deadly sins to be my downfall (wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, gluttony ya know) mine, without a doubt, would be sloth. It's something I really need to work on.
So today I wanted to get out and lift that feeling of nothingness that I had on my back from yesterday. I went out and took pictures amongst campus instead of just my usual little cove and it felt so freeing. It is just the best feeling, I feel like I lose myself and I can just think and I just move without really calculating what I'm doing and it's the most freeing feeling. I can't wait to do it more this summer. I hope to do it the rest of my life. I want to live in a place where I can always be with nature and feel His presence.
After I took these photos I went to H2o which is like a NAVS but on Sundays. My favorite part about 'church' is worship. It should probably be fellowship or hearing the word or something along those lines...but I can't help but just absolutely love to worship and show my love for God through that. For the 19ish years I was Catholic, I didn't worship. We sang old, ancient hymns and just read the lines out of tired lyrical books. But as I explored other sects of Christianity, I came to realize that I didn't have to worship like that. I felt no connection with my heart before. I just sang the lines with my mouth, not my heart. But when I worship now, I can feel Christ in me. I get to sway and dance and raise my hands and close my eyes and give praise that comes from my inner being. It's the best way I can offer myself to Christ that I know.
With much love, Lauren.
