Not Goodbye, It's See You Later.
SomeoneLikeYou Thursday, May 8, 2014
Lavender Dress: c/o US Trendy.
Pink Flats, Mint Green Clutch (gift from a friend): Thrifted.
Lipstick in MAC's Please Me.
I've officially come home for the summer and left Kent State. These were the last set of photos on campus I took last night, and it already makes me sad to look at them. I didn't know what to feel last night sleeping in my dorm bed for the last time. I guess it never really feels real till after you're done, left, and go on living your life and you realize that you're not there anymore...I wasn't particularly upset, just wanting to come home and get all of the moving and packing done with, and even this morning I felt strangely stoney and unemotional.
It wasn't until I was hugging my roommate goodbye at the end where it just came so unexpectedly. These emotions about leaving and not coming back until January to this place that I refer to as 'home'. I wasn't upset leaving last school year, but this one is different because I won't be back for such a long time. I'll miss the beautiful fall we have at Kent and the excitement of the new school year and all of my friends' tanned and happy faces in August. Instead, I'll return into a cold, snowy, barren campus in January after (hopefully) having the semester of my life.
It feels strange and I let myself kind of cry on the way home because everything will always be different, always be changing. I can never have quite the same experience again which makes me so terribly sad...because this year was incredible. And I know the summer will be incredible and so will next year, but they'll never be the same kind of incredible again. That moment is gone and it just becomes a part of your past.
I will miss Kent State University dearly in the next nine months, but I know that I need to live my life and part of being able to do that is going through change. Change may be scary, but I know it'll all be okay; even if it might not feel like it right now. x
With much love, Lauren.