Floral Garden Dress: c/o OASAP.
Black T-Strap Heels: Thrifted.
Lipstick in Lime Crime's Centrifuchsia.
I've felt strangely insecure lately just about everything, which is strange because I haven't felt this way in many years. Nothing really even happened to make me feel this way--I just do. I haven't been taking outfit photos as often lately because I just don't like to look at myself, or even take them during this time I've felt kind of down. It just feels labor some to try and get what I have pictured in my mind, and when I can't it brings me down even more so. It's just not body insecurity lately, but insecurity about everything about my general appearance and personality, as well. My round face, my imperfect skin, my inability to do makeup, my forever unruly, frizzy, mess of hair that I can never get to look good...it's just overwhelming to find all these flaws in myself lately and I don't really know what brought it about.
I'm not writing this so we can all have a big pity party for Lauren evening...more so, I just want to let others know that you can be at peace with your body and appearance, but there are still days/times when it's a struggle. I've had a solid self positivity for about three years now, so it surprised me to feel so weak in my thinking all of a sudden when usually I can reassure and instill confidence in myself.
I don't know if it could be a factor, but perhaps it's because I'm feeling very anxious about leaving for Europe soon. I have all these worries and anxieties and it's making me doubt myself, abilities, and life/relationships I guess. With that insecurity breeding of traveling abroad, I think perhaps I've found my confidence in other areas of my life also crumbling down. Been trying to read my Bible more often and look for encouraging verses to bring me back to where I was. I know this is just a little stumbling block that I will get through! x
With much love, Lauren.
